Regressing Back

Recently I have noticed that on days when I am not feeling well my Autism characteristics get worse than on an average day.  For the last two weeks I have battled Asthmatic Bronchitis.  It is during this time where my tolerance for sensory and patience for people were significantly lowered.

One day last week I was sitting in a doctor’s office with mom when I had an attack in the waiting room.  A woman was sitting in the chair across the way but she kept staring at me. Normally I would have just gotten up and walked away but being on medication that was making me bloated I became self-conscious and took everything the wrong way.  All of a sudden when I looked up and she made I contact with me I lost it.  I screamed ” Stop staring at me! I don’t know you and there’s nothing to see here so turn around and go back to your crocheting”   I think I might have scared the woman though as she kept her head down the rest of the time I was waiting in the office. I must admit that I was a bit taken back by my reaction as I have not screamed at a stranger in public in years

Now that I am feeling like my old self again I can slowly see my personality coming back.  I feel once again I have control over my sensory issues so I am not snapping at random people who are bothering me.

Thank you for reading!

Autistic Female

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  1. Randy Calvin
    Feb 06, 2010 @ 10:47:58

    I have the same feelings about people who I believe stare at me. Where I attened high school, I developed assumptions that classmates were constantly eye-balling me. Due to these superstitions, I would turn to see who was looking at me. They will catch me staring at them which evidently drew the impression of me being extremely odd.

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  2. Frances
    Feb 07, 2010 @ 21:08:34

    Hi, do you get overwhelmed when theres too many people around you? I remember walking the halls at my highschool and would see a boy who seemed upset but when he was in class he seemed a bit calmer? and what are some ways that you help yourself calm down and you do get upset? Thank you

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