Not another nightmare

Over the past few years I have been able to successfully overcome many road blocks with my Autism.  However the one mountain I  have not get been able to climb is getting a  drivers license.  I tried a few times in the past which was disastrous as I  have fallen flat on my face.  Although I am a very good driver when I am with people I feel comfortable with , I can’t seem to hold it together long enough to pass a road test.  I have a hard time dealing with changes outside of my comfort zone and as a result I start getting defensive as a way to protect myself.  Being around people is a challenge for me until I get use to them but having a total stranger who I never met enter my car barking orders at me sends my sensory issue and anxiety into overdrive and as a result I start arguing with the examiner.

It has been almost 4 years since I have last taken a road test and recently my Autism specialist informed me that he thinks it is time I try again to aim for the goal of a drivers license.   I didn’t like this idea and almost fell right out of the chair I was sitting in.  I don’t have warm fuzzy feelings when it comes to driving and all of my disastrous adventures associated with it came flooding back to me.  Though I have grown up a lot   in the last four years I still have the same issues which I don’t think anyone one including the specialist understands.  Of course neither him or my family really listens to me anyway so they are all going to hock me to China until i get the stupid piece of paper from the state.  I will try again and hope for the best but if I don’t succeed I am going to blame all of them.

Thanks for reading!!

Autistic Female


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